The Fremont Bridge was up while I was biking home so I had a minute to check my phone and I saw your email response about feeling completely done... First of all, let me just commend you that you are incredibly articulate when you are frustrated. That email you wrote to Martha and to Luckson is excellent. I don't think you should feel any sender's remorse. Remember when we went for a run and you were wondering what to do about the request for you and Bill to go to a completely different hospital, and after processing it together, we agreed that you needed to stand your ground and state your expectations. You have done the same thing here and you've done it well.
The systems there are so different and so maddeningly inefficient that it is no surprise that you are going to feel like throwing your bike alongside the trail like Taylor did.
Anyway, after I read your email, the bridge went back down and it was safe to head across. I biked back the the UDistrict and stopped by Heather Kwok's house to ask her to pray with me for you. So, we sat on the floor with Leah crawling around and prayed for a while.
I want you to know that as you are sleeping that we were praying for peace, for stamina and strength for you, for you and Micah in particular to have a good interaction when you see him again in the morning (or afternoon if you have to leave before he wakes up), for Micah and Liam to have a day full of joy and learning, for Bill to have the strength to support you (thank you Bill for your heart in all of this!), for laughter at the ridiculousness of this all, for some gift of delight and grace to come your way in the new day ahead, for you to know you are in God's hands and that He's pushing you up the hill even though you are feeling cold and clammy and you want to stop.
I'm thankful that the bridge was up so I could read your email before I got home so I could stop by Heather's before I had to get to another meeting so we could hold you up to the light together...
an old picture of Taylor to share
as this is the joy we are praying to surround you all today....
email response from Bill:
ReplyDeleteHi Emily and Heather,
Thank you for your prayers for us during our night. We definitely need them! Micah didn’t exactly wake up on the right side of the bed this morning, but it is a new day and Elizabeth and I are determined to be more patient with him. An earlier bedtime might help too! The orientation requirement of Elizabeth are indeed excessive, but I appreciate your challenge (Emily) to venture “laughter at the ridiculousness”.
Beautiful picture of the Fremont bridge, by the way…. Much love, Bill